Wasting away

Wasting away, originally uploaded by ~ Sailor ~.

I’m pissed. I have wasted too much time and energy on a career change that is going nowhere in hurry. I sit here day in and day out pretending that things will be better, that the market will improve, that I can actually earn a living selling real estate. Who am I kidding? My finances are in ruins, the out look bleak for the next several months at best.

I need to focus more on my photography business and maybe a no-brainer part time job to generate a little steady income. I also need to focus less, much less on my personal life and more on survival. I hate it, but it has to be this way.

I have usually been quite disciplined in my business life. Over the past 16 months, I have become undisciplined to the point of irresponsibility. I have needs to meet; quit smoking, develop an income and stop making excuses for myself. An active and involved business life often filled the lonely hours in times past. Perhaps it will again and I can let go of some my other needs or at least miss them less.